It also seems to be making me have weird dreams. I woke up yesterday thinking about a guy I knew while I was in college who was a friend of my roommate's. Great guy, totally not my type (whatever that was). He l o v e d Denver and since his dad worked for TWA, he would just get on a plane whenever he wanted. He flew in to see me once. Very weird. Just, very weird. He spent the night in the downstairs bedroom, and I slept in the room right above him. Weird.
Why was I thinking about Rich?? Do I not have enough to worry/think about??
I was noticing over the weekend that I have developed my usual winter fingernails: cracking, breaking, nasty-looking cuticles, the whole thing. Add to the fact that I'm biting on them incessantly, and you get the general picture of just ugly-ass, sore fingers. My face is breaking out too. Hello, adolescence. Can I just hibernate for a couple of weeks, please? Oh, except it's not cold enough; even the bears aren't hibernating this year!
Niece had to do dialysis again today, won't be released till tomorrow (we hope).
I could be a lot more freaked-out about all of this; on the other hand, everything has been put into perspective by recent events. Someone wrote me an email this morning based on something mildly whinging I'd written him, without getting into any details. Here's what it said in part:
Your "outlook" is what you decide it will be. It is not shaped by outside events. YOU are in control. Not others. ... And while it is true that there are days when "nothing good is happening" - those are your words BTW - there will always be another day....I see his point, but...if I'm in control, I would be reallyREALLY happy to hand the joystick off to someone else, please. Anyone interested?
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