Crossroads

I made a decision yesterday: I'm doing no more cataloging in November.

Headache-and-Vertigo-Woman has been gone (on vac this time) for ten days; she'll be back Tuesday. Yesterday, once again, it was me and the director holding down the Reference Desk all morning because the other Tuesday morning person worked 12-9 (afternoon meeting and child care issues). H&VW is taking off another week in December. The director is trying to schedule mid-year (fiscal) reviews for everyone, but even she said she wasn't sure when that was going to happen for me since one of us is always scheduled at a service desk somewhere lately.

So, y'know, I'm not going to knock myself out to do my job since no one else is hanging around doing much of theirs. I have over 150 Bloglines posts to read. I have a ton of original cataloging to do (an entire shelf PLUS...I almost never have more than 10 things waiting), but those will have to wait. The "fly box" is full. Yesterday I had over 30 emails to deal with. And I'm going to have to bring duct tape for CT. I keep fantasizing about that scene in "The Matrix" where Neo's mouth disappears....

Beast told me yesterday that when he comes to see me at work, when he walks in the workroom he is assailed by negativity in the air. We are stressed to the breaking point, cranky with each other (and patrons, I expect), and fed up. I love my work, but right now I'm not enjoying my job. The thought of going to work absolutely makes my head ache. Shades of H&VW, the difference being that I show up.

Oh, I forgot to mention that I've still got about 35 hours of time off accrued. No clue when I'll be taking that! There is at least one person gone every single day in December, including Saturdays. I may not get much cataloging done in December, either.

And Sparky's sick, so that means I'll be coming down with something in the next couple of weeks. He's sick enough that he actually came home from school and immediately asked for Tylenol yesterday...he never does that.

So, excuse me very much if I lack sympathy and patience; my perspective is gone. On the other hand, as I update my Bloglines, I'll probably be posting some links, which I intend to make coherent instead of my usual doing-two-things-at-once slapdashed job. Life is certainly not very fun right now.